I am again at a lost. I have tried so hard for things to work out, but everyday is a new twist. the theory, to go with the flow is challenging, but I am going to have to do that, because stressing over everything. My body can't take the pain no more. I can't take it no more. I feel as though I am screaming in a room full of people, but no one looks my way. I have written deep sad poems expressing what I feel, but it doesnt feel like enough. All I know, I am glad for the friends I have, if I didnt have them, Id be gone. Love you.